The Surprise by Ingeborg Bachmann

The Surprise by Ingeborg Bachmann

As there I left the road in May,
And took my way along a ground,
I found a glade with girls at play,
By leafy boughs close-hemmed around,
And there, with stores of harmless joys,
They plied their tongues, in merry noise:
Though little did they seem to fear
So queer a stranger might be near;
Teeh-hee! Look here! Hah! ha! Look there!
And oh! so playsome, oh! so fair.

And one would dance as one would spring,
Or bob or bow with leering smiles,
And one would swing, or sit and sing,
Or sew a stitch or two at whiles,
And one skipped on with downcast face,
All heedless, to my very place,
And there, in fright, with one foot out,
Made one dead step and turned about.
Heeh, hee, oh! oh! ooh! oo!—Look there!
And oh! so playsome, oh! so fair.

Away they scampered all, full speed,
By boughs that swung along their track,
As rabbits out of wood at feed,
At sight of men all scamper back.
And one pulled on behind her heel,
A thread of cotton, off her reel,
And oh! to follow that white clue,
I felt I fain could scamper too.
Teeh, hee, run here. Eeh! ee! Look there!
And oh! so playsome, oh! so fair.

Hermann Hesse

There is, so I believe, in the essence of everything, something that we cannot call learning. There is, my friend, only a knowledge - that is everywhere.
Hermann Hesse

about certain things

I am worried about my daughter, who for reasons I will disclose of later, does not

currently keep regular contact with me.

 

I am so worried about her.

 

Is there a reason, she is so quiet.

She never fights me on anything anymore.

She is never rude or upset or just irritated with me.

She never complains, she never goes against anything I say.

 

She rarely blogs.

She has not been on the poetry site for more than 6 weeks. 

She rarely ever really really reply to my mails.

 

Should I be concerned?

 

I am ....

 

 

For my Friend Tash

What you loved and what you strove for,
What you dreamed and what you lived through,
Do you know if it was joy or suffering?
G sharp and A flat, E flat or D sharp,
Are they distinguishable to the ear?

 

 

I miss you too! Thank you for missing me !

Without You

My Pillow gazes upon me at night Empty as a gravestone; I never thought it would be so bitter To be alone, Not to lie down asleep in your hair. I lie alone in a silent house, The hanging lamp darkened, And gently stretch out my hands To gather in yours, And softly press my warm mouth Toward you, and kiss myself, exhausted and weak- Then suddenly I'm awake And all around me the cold night grows still. The star in the window shines clearly- Where is your blond hair, Where your sweet mouth? Now I drink pain in every delight And poison in every wine; I never knew it would be so bitter To be alone, Alone, without you.   *Hermann Hesse*

I Know, You Walk

I Know, You Walk-- by Hermann Hesse

I walk so often, late, along the streets,
Lower my gaze, and hurry, full of dread,
Suddenly, silently, you still might rise
And I would have to gaze on all your grief
With my own eyes,
While you demand your happiness, that's dead.
I know, you walk beyond me, every night,
With a coy footfall, in a wretched dress
And walk for money, looking miserable!
Your shoes gather God knows what ugly mess,
The wind plays in your hair with lewd delight---
You walk, and walk, and find no home at all.

Daddys Girl - For Felix

When the sun goes down and it's getting late
You say it's time for bed
She just takes her time
Acting like she never heard a word you said
Little baby wanna hold you tight
She don't ever wanna say good night
She's a lover, she wanna be Daddy's Girl
When the morning comes
And it's time to go start another day
She won't let you leave, and she does her best
To try to make you stay
Pretty baby gonna start to cry
She don't ever wanna say good bye
She's a lover, she wanna be Daddy's Girl

She don't ever wanna be without you
Never have to worry she won't doubt you
Then she puts her head upon your shoulder
Says she marry you when she get older

When the time has come, and she's old enough
To be on her own
She won't understand why you're feelin' sad
Cause she's leaving you all alone
Little woman gonna make you cry
You don't ever wanna say good bye
She's a lady, she'll always be Daddy's Girl

Little woman gonna break your heart
Gonna miss her when you're both apart
She's a lady, but she'll always be Daddy's Girl

She'll always be Daddy's Girl
She'll always be Daddy's Girl

 

I am posting this because you make me feel like the perfect father. You make me want to be better than I have ever been.

I am doing this healing for you, because I want you back, I want you to be daddy's girl again.

I want You back, I want my friend Tash back.

 

Will you please be Daddy's girl someday soon?

Will you wait ?